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April 23, 2015 / austreberto

proper etiquette to have when you run into an ex (day twenty three)

proper etiquette to have when you run into an ex

when you see each other from across the room where happenstance brought you together
not unlike the first time you met each other
so random that it made you believe in fate
pure chance

you have become different people the second time around

beyond strangers
but no longer familiar

this is not the same person that i fell in love with

this does not serve as an opportunity to remind each other of what went so wrong
or why you weren’t right for each other in the first place
let those facts simply be

hold your tongue
unlike all the times you didn’t back then
back and forth of having the final say

the thing you had most in common back then
was your unwillingness to back down
to give up

stubbornness
bullheaded

until it came to each other
then you did give up

that was the easy part

the hard part was committing to the silence
which she had some trouble adjusting to despite it being her idea in the first place
wouldn’t let go after letting go

you arrived to the same location once again
because life is funny like that
but you forgot to laugh
still feeling the sting of separation and the terms you left on

a brief glance
eye contact
maybe a smile
acknowledging the presence of someone once so close
remembering the better times

wanted to leave it at just that
but she wouldn’t leave it at just that

that moment
condensed every argument
every bickering
and pettiness
over the span of months
into seconds

a concentrated sucker punch
and she knew how to make it hurt
knew how to make you hurt
remembered your weak points from all the times you opened up to her

couldn’t get a word in edgewise from the interr
interrup
int
interrupt
she kept cutting you off

and you walked away
different people yet again
reminded of why it wasn’t right in the first place yet again

you just hoped that life would stop trying to be so funny
and take you seriously for once

April 22, 2015 / austreberto

dear pup (day twenty two)

dear pup

when they first got you
the child wondered if there was place for you in the afterlife
though you were already an angel to them

and you wondered the same thing about her
but not after years of love

of making bad days better
and okay days the best

by her side
every night
and she would return the favor
on the stormy nights
kept you safe

a little closer after the thunder

April 21, 2015 / austreberto

what you can do with all that hope (day twenty one)

what you can do with all that hope

go where you got it from in the first place

on sale
half off
buy one get one free
blue light special
black friday
act fast
but wait
there’s more

and exchange it for a little bit of elbow grease
a little bit of traction under your soles and under your soul
some momentum in your actions
some conviction in your purpose
some spark behind your adrenaline
some realization behind your control
because you have so much of it

you
you have face so much

it’s why it’s so hard for you to look back
leaving those hard times in the dust

eat my dirt
kiss my ass
sayonara
peace out
i’ll call you some time
(i’m not going to call)
because you left that all behind

because of you

you gave up all that hope behind your wishes
started giving a shit for once

you stood up
took your first steps forward
and saw the progress to be had when you tried

and it felt good

April 20, 2015 / austreberto

mesmerized (day twenty)

mesmerized

i got lost in conversation with her
but never bothered to ask for directions to get back on track

wherever they went
her words
it always felt like i was going home

April 19, 2015 / austreberto

title pending (day nineteen)

title pending

a dog barks at nothing
because we see nothing

a child three blocks away scrapes his knee from learning to ride his bike without training wheels for the first time

i felt the stings of bees that almost thought about stinging me but wised up at the last second

the pollen gathers like fresh snow
and stains elbows on tables during prayers

say a prayer for atheists that wanted to believe
to the hypocritical christian
to the agnostic who’s content on not knowing the truth

we will never know the truth
but i thought i found in the back porches of summertime lemonade

the glasses were empty

i swallowed the seeds with the sunshine and the fertilizer
and told you that this is how i grow my gardens

johnny apple seed was a friend of mine

we parted on bitter terms from sucking on the citrus
was afraid of scurvy back then

on the other side of the world a woman finally loved herself for the first time without the figurative crutches she clung onto all the time

let them drop for once
the crippling set backs we created
out of nothing

the things the days were barking at in the first place
trying to wake you up from autopilot days of just getting back
barely making it

let us open up our eyes and take in all that is around us
the beauty in the details

a child has been born
took its first breath in this world
sharing the same particles that were breathed by others in the past and will be breathed by others in the future

at the same moment
a woman got out of an abusive relationships
and convinced herself that it was never love that he felt for her

both have new beginnings ahead of themselves
learning to walk by themselves
learning to trust

a girl meets a boy who is convinced is too good to be true

a boy meets a girl and he can’t believe his eyes

they both were dreaming
and didn’t want to wake up

when they woke up
they had not met yet

but would when the time was right

the time wasn’t right

got impatient with their plans of patience

started living on autopilot and missed the opportunities that came their way

wanted to find the truth instead
but found nothing because life never worked that way

i’ll come to you when you least expect it
and when you expect it the most
i’ll be in hiding in the answers that are right in front of you

April 18, 2015 / austreberto

haikus (day eighteen)

let the chaos flow
through your wild existence
but not control you

control your patience
of yourself and of others
be calm and be calm

calm can only be
achieved through staying present
and self forgiving

forgiveness only
when your past stays in the past
and full steam ahead

captain let’s set sail
the adventures await us
and drift off for days

April 17, 2015 / austreberto

family tree (day seventeen)

family tree

i climbed the branches
despite my fear of falling
physically
figuratively
and spiritually

though i was good at it

wanted to climb too fast
too high on the saplings that could not bear my weight

but that’s where we kept all the best fruits

the mangoes next to the strawberries
and the geeseberries underneath the shnozberries

the ripest ones always just out of reach
grazing my fingertips

it was a one of a kind
like us

it was beautiful underneath the sun
like us

the branches grew in every direction
one for each of us to hang from
and despite the extra baggage we hung onto
we hung on
reaching a little bit higher as we all grew together

up
up
and up